How Will I

Such a joy is to see you smile..
Light up the environment brighter than the brightest light..
Such a joy is just to see you for a while..
For you are angel personified..
And silly as I am..
I manage to do otherwise..
Perturb you for reasons undignified..
How will I ever be able to forgive myself..
For providing anything less than the joy..
Is an offense unfathomable and unforgivable in my mind...
But all I can say is that I will try..
For the guilt of mine is getting too much even for an ass like mine..