Blowers Daughter : Damien Rice

Once an amazing movie indeed and equally amazing were its songs. But the moment I heard them I was reminded of the song Blowers Daughter by Damien Rice. Got introduced to this song via the movie Closer and the video link given over here is also from the same movie. Listen to them, I bet you will find them quite similar yet different.

You Tube Link

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

Quote : George Bernard Shaw

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man.": George Bernard Shaw

The choice is open to all which side you are inclining. Being reasonable or unreasonable [:)]

Rainy Days in Bangalore - in my Pocket

Yeah hah hah...The ever unpredictable weather of Bangalore. I have a new weapon against your wits and that is the power of information in my mobile at any random time I want ....How you ask then my answer is by subscribing to the alert provided in the below mentioned link :D

Bangalore Weather Alerts

JosePhine - The Wallflowers

I have never heard such a beautiful rendition of the words Josephine and Tangerine.

You Tube Link

I feel pretty good
I feel all right
And I've been thinkin' maybe
I could spend the night

I know you've been sad
I know I've been bad
But if you'd let me
Make you ribbons from a paper bag

[Chorus:]
Josephine
You're so good to me
And I know
It ain't easy
Josephine
You're so sweet
You must taste just like sugar & tangerines

I won't make a sound
Sleep on the ground
When you wake I will
Drive you into town
I missed your smile
Your schoolgirl style
But I never had much fun
Maybe the very first mile

[chorus]

Don't you know
I watched you walkin' home from school
Your friends on the old playgrounds
You never looked so down
Won't you come and help me with these cuts of mine?
I've disconnected my heart
And cut myself on the wires
Josephine

I know I was wrong
I knew all along
But I got so far from my home
I never thought I'd be so lonesome

[chorus]

Quote: Jack Kerouac

“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes ‘Awww!’” -- Jack Kerouac

“Maybe that's what life is...a wink of the eye and winking stars.”

“Great things are not accomplished by those who yield to trends and fads and popular opinion.”

“My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them.”

“Mankind is like dogs, not gods - as long as you don't get mad they'll bite you - but stay mad and you'll never be bitten. Dogs don't respect humility and sorrow.

Copied without regret from Wit

Quote: Martin Sage and Sybil Adelman

"Most of you have been where I am tonight. The crash site of unrequited love. You ask yourself, How did I get here? What was it about? Was it her smile? Was it the way she crossed her legs, the turn of her ankle, the poignant vulnerability of her slender wrists? What are these elusive and ephemeral things that ignite passion in the human heart? That's an age-old question. It's perfect food for thought on a bright midsummer's night." : Martin Sage and Sybil Adelman

Am I left with anything else to say.

Randy Pausch

Haven't heard of this guy. I tell you in this world us being constantly browsing through the net, if we have somehow managed to miss this guy then we need to change our browsing style.

What a man...What a man this guy is. He is so much inspiring and praiseworthy that I fear that if I start telling about him I may not be able to say a trifle of things than what he deserves.

He was a professor, an academician and a person suffering from terminal pancreatic cancer. He died on July 25th 2008.

No don't feel sorry for him. He was a man who influenced so many lives before he died. He is different, something of a crusader in this world of plastic emotions, just a common man who knew how to approach his inevitable end. A man whose words are so simple but so real that it will render a shudder down your spines. His last lecture series is the lecture he gave before his death. If you haven't seen it then you are missing a kind of purifier, stainer of your life.

I cant say much but some journeys are meant to be taken to be able to understand how did the person who had already undertaken it feels. So i leave you with some links which will be help you in understanding why am I praising this guy so much (Of which I feel I haven't done enough).

You Tube Link. An hour long lecture and please don't give me this crap that I don't have time cause I know and you also know you have plenty and how much time you could waste otherwise.

An Article on Him

His Blog

Once

If you want a review of this movie then visiting this person's blog is a better option. My post is just express a feeling which I cannot even understand.

A beautiful movie especially for someone having musical ears. At the end of which you will be left with hordes of emotion each having equal significance. This is a movie which makes you feel happy, makes you feel sad, makes you feel dejected, makes you feel elated - all at the same time. Generally any movie can evoke emotions which are biased towards making you feel happy, sad, pumped up, exasperated or something else. This movie would leave you confused and when an emotion starts taking precedence over others you will hear yourself speaking "Hey, how can I feel that alone. The other things are also very significant".

With variant feeling its hard to categorize "Once" but one can be sure of that you will end up adoring and loving it. I am sure that the likeness would be compelling enough to recommend it to your friends.

"A must see" is all I can utter in the end.

Quote: Abraham Lincoln

'Tis better to be silent and be thought a fool, than to speak and remove all doubt.:Abraham Lincoln

Now you got the reason why I prefer silence.

Pub Event on Mobile for Free (Bangalore, Pune, Hyderabad, Chennai, Delhi, Kolkata, Mumbai)

Since my other cities friends were feeling neglected so adding the links for other cities

Pune Pub event alerts

Kolkata Pub event alerts

Bangalore Pub event alerts

Hyderabad Pub event alerts

Mumbai Pub event alerts

Chennai Pub event alerts

New Delhi Pub event alerts

HIC !!!! HIC !!!! HURRAY !!!!!!!!!!!!

Pub Event on my Mobile for Free

Now I can have Bangalore pub events in my mobile for free. :)

Bangalore Pub events alerts

HIC !!!!! HIC !!!!! HURRAY !!!!!!!!!!

I needed this :D. What about You :P

Dash

Sometimes something is always there. One may never realize its presence but because of one's ignorance it does not mean it does not exist.

Todays discovery of mine was about a simple, harmless and friendly dash. Yes dash (-) is what I am talking about. Never thought this particular dash has a whole set of lineage and variety. Dash with a certain length means something, some other length dash denotes something else altogether. Hyphen, figure dash, em dash, en dash, horizontal bar, swung dash. Confused what am I talking about. My friends these all are form of dash

Was going through this post which is a degree above my discovery. My discovery is even more basic. Thanks to sids I have been enlightened.

Quote: Dave Matthews Band

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever” : Dave Matthew s Band

So true, very true. This guy is really becoming the source of content of my blog by being an introducer to several new stuffs of late. May be He is becoming more a managerial types now [;)]....Well the one give speeches...inspires...manager...got the point ....[:D]

Coke Studio

Recently this guy introduced me to some videos on you tube. They were from Coke Studio.

I was stunned by the performances and the voice quality. Anyhow I revere Pakistani Singer. Their voice is different- pure, fresh with a soofiyana touch. Simply and truly amazing. A simple example would be I'm in Love by Saba/Seline. Pretty unknown to me at least. Nevertheless once you listen to them it is worth visiting the 40-50 odd songs available on youtube/coke studio.

The music, the voices and everything in between is mesmerizing and heavenly. So browse and enjoy.

Old Skool, Pre Historic Skool or No Skool

Money, Recognition, Promotion a part and parcel of professional life. Whoooaaahhh I know I have made half of the readers nervous and half of you excited with anticipation. To the former I say well a taboo topic should get you edgy whereas to the later I apologize cause this post is going to be as boring as any other post of mine.

There was a discussion I had with one of my friends recently. The discussion was more so on the line over the seduction of higher pay package and disgruntlement an employee towards his/her employer. More so on the line when an employee is working his/her ass off to do various things in his/her work and the package does not correspond to current industry standards. Shouldn't him/her think about switching. Shouldn't he/her be disappointed with people putting lesser working time and getting equal or better packages. What is right thought process. What is the wrong thought process then. Is he/she wrong in thinking that he/she is worth more the value. More so is he/she wrong in thinking that his/her employer is being unfair in renumeration and recognition and question his/her treatment.

But as the way I am I had to have some crazy thought up my sleeves.There was a story which I had in mind and I reproduced in that discussion. The story goes like this."There was owner of a vineyard who needed people to work on his fields. He hired a few people in his vineyard on X amount of money daily. So there were workers in his vineyard toiling hard since morning in his fields. Some other needy workers also came to him to requested him for some kind of job. He being kind hearted also gave these new workers work and they started to work only after the afternoon. When the sun went down and time of payment came. He gave all his workers the same amount of money irrespective of the time they joined. This action of his resulted in resentment among the workers who worked very very hard for the whole day and got the same pay as the one who had worked only for a few and questioned their masters wisdom. To this the master replied that "Why do they question his wisdom. Haven't they been given what had been decided upon. If the goodness inside of me allows me to give from my own wealth the same to the ones who worked less then why should anyone grumble. What is yours will be yours but if I being the owner decide to give anything to other should not be a matter of jealousy for you. Its I who give""

Hmmmmmm...gulp gulp....I know a hard story to relate to....Or even digest...But within the small professional life, I have realized that its futile comparing and seeking what others are getting...How many times we may have done great job in our work but not received the same amount of recognition...How many times we may start believing that our work is niched and creative and thus deserves more credit...How many times we may think that working earnestly is not worth it at all...
To all these doubts I have only a thing to say. Is it not true that whatever position we are in we should do it to the best of our abilities irrespective of the working style of people around, irrespective of praising methodology of ones employer. Shouldn't doing the work in the BEST possible way be our aim always, irrespective of number of hours we may have to toil. I think not that grudgingly working is the right way, but earnestness is of utmost importance, its another thing that tomorrow we may go to some other place for the right reason but not grudgingly but willingly and happily that the time spend was worth it, after all. HAHAHAH as the title suggest this thought process does not belong to any school :)

Rock On !!!!

Couldn't agree more or couldn't disagree less with what has already written by this guy

But what to do as what I am and who I am, have to put in my own crappy take. And my take is more so dependent upon the ever random thoughts originating from planet Mars.

Go to a pub which plays rock, leave out the alcohol and ciggies and force people to sit in the chair, and thats "rock on" to me. No not in a bad way, but absolutely and whole heartedly along enjoyable line. Amazing movie with no great stand out performance as such, but how many Indian movies have rocking tune and songs and music because it should be there. Not many and I thoroughly enjoyed the music.

One tune which probably is not so famous or infamous among the multitudes of amazing songs in this movie is "Zehriley Saap". But I tell you after attending so many rock gigs and competitions its not so bad after all. Although lyrics may be a little on the funnier side but hey can you tell me does lyrics of System of Down has any meaning.

Not much to say which has already been said in millions of reviews already except that this movie did encourage some of friends to revive their forgotten love for strumming. So "ROCK ON" :)

Quote: Lynn Johnston

“Never tell anyone that you're writing a book, going on a diet, exercising, taking a course, or quitting smoking. They'll encourage you to death.”: Lynn Johnston

In a way yes. Of course yes.

Quote: Einstein & Goethe

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.” - Albert Einstein

Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do. - Goethe

Two very different but inspiring messages by two very different people. But they seem to be continuation of each other. Its worth keeping them together and enjoy the influence they might create in the life.

Quote: Marty Indik

Confusion is always the most honest response: Marty Indik

Rightfully So ...Rightfully So...

Quote : Randy Pausch

Randy Pausch: "Time is all you have, and you might have less than you think!”

Bapu

Trying to make him using a different technique and tried to keep it simple. If someone recognizes him without seeing the title of the post then I guess the sketch has achieved its purpose

Girl with a Difference

Some subjects are simply too beautiful to screw up even by such an untalented and novice maker

Lady (Why make my blog NSFW'ish)

Sketching them to perfection and ease still remains an elusive dreams. The more distant, the more tough the goal is, the more is the desire to pursue it. The fruits of reaching the destination is so tempting that I will keep my sketches skewed towards the fairer sex and keep on embarrassing my blog readers with my NSFW'ish sketches

Aerosmith : What it takes

Interesting lyrics, and not one of those typical sad songs hence it deserves a mention in my blog

YouTube Link

There goes my old girlfriend, there's another diamond ring
And, uh, all those late night promises I guess they don't mean a thing
So baby, what's the story? Did you find another man?
Is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made?
When you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away.
I used to feel your fire
But now it's cold inside
And you're back on the street like you didn't miss a beat, yeah

Chorus:
Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me what it takes to let you go.

Yeah
Girl, before I met you I was F.I.N.E. Fine
but your love made me a prisoner, yeah my heart's been doing time
You spent me up like money, then you hung me out to dry
It was easy to keep all your lies in disguise
Cause you had me in deep with the devil in your eyes

Chorus
Guitar!

Tell me that you're happy that you're on your own Yeah, yeah, yeah
Tell me that it's better when you're all alone
Tell me that your body doesn't miss my touch
Tell me that my lovin' didn't mean that much
Tell me you ain't dyin' when you're cryin' for me

Chorus

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life to the toss of the dice?
Tell me who's to blame for thinkin' twice
No no no no 'cause I don't wanna burn in paradise
Ooo Let go, let go, let go,
let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go,
let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go, let it go
I don't wanna burn, I don't wanna burn

Warrior

Lady

Back

Mr. Holland Opus ..... John Lennon

Mr Holland Opus a movie with a difference. A movie which created its own niche in the ever decreasing gray cells of mine. Effortlessly I recalled the scenes which I had seen on star movies almost 12-13 years ago. It gave me as much pleasure as it had given me during the very impressionable growing years of mine.

This movie is about a man Holland Opus who like any other wanted to make big in the music world. To support his cause he taught side by side. Thereafter it is about a journey of man from being any other human being to a loved teacher, and his eventual growing up with a deaf son. I remember how I almost got tears when Mr. Opus sings the song "Beautiful Boy" for his son. It still sends down a shiver down my spine when I imagine the whole rendition in my mind.

In one of the reviews of this movie in imdb someone wrote "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." : John Lennon and which is what happened to Mr. Opus. Such a beautiful and true thought indeed. In the hullabaloo of constantly moving towards an ever distant or a nearing destination we tend to forget the journey which will define us even when we are there at the final destination of our dreams. At the end we will only look back and reminiscence upon the foot prints of our life which in due course would have left an indelible mark in our hearts.

Indeed a brilliant movie which leaves you with a light heart.

Purpose of LIfe. Is it this ?

On and off I attend Youth get together in the church I go to. One interesting thing was said by Moses (the person who generally leads the fellowship)

I do not remember whether he was quoting somebody.

But here is what was said.

The purpose of life is to study hard, finish schooling, finish college, get into good job, get married, have children and then cycle remains same for the children, children's children and so on.

Is it true, I will and always wonder

22/6/2008: Koramangala Methodist Church: Speaker: Pastor Andrew: Theme God's Empire in Action

Reading : Luke 13:10-17

The sermon in first person:

Jesus came preaching of his kingdom amidst roman empire. An empire which was a counter trend to the empires of the world. Jesus is teaching in a synagogue (a place of worship of the Jews).

Beth == House, Bethlehem == House of Gods, Synagogue == House of prayer

A woman is incapable of standing as she was crippled for the past 18 years. Although being weighed down by the deformity yet she came to the house of the Lord, glorifying God. Whether bent or straight her intention was to praise the Lord. We may ask ourself why should we go to the church. Imagine a football match between manchester united and chelsea without spectators. Church needs us and we need church. It is a place of assembly for praising God. Synagogue leader open the house of the Lord for prayer. He is responsible for the community thus a critical personality. Spiritual leadership is completely different from normal leadership. Spiritual leader is confident in God and knows God, seeks God well, is humble, a follower of God's example, serves God, loves God and is dependent of God.

God is calling us for spiritual leadership. God is looking for people who understand spiritual powers. Jesus says "You have been freed". God intervened in the life of the crippled woman. Jesus works with God to perform miracles. He then looks up to the father and give Him thanks.

God's empire in action is that Jesus works with God to accomplish various tasks. Jesus re interperates the law for the crippled woman. Deutronomy 5:12-15 : God created the sabbath. Jesus re interperates to tell that the sabbath day was meant to explain real meaning of God's purpose. God is telling us via the scripture that the timing of God is very important. God intercepts our problem at the right time...

Everyone needs healing. The vision of God is that we all stand erect and praise Him. Spiritual power is untying people who are caught up in their bandages. 1 Corinthians 4:20 "Kingdom of God is not in world but in power"

Quote : Akhil Kumar

Dreams are not those you get while sleeping. Dreams are those that don't let you sleep: Akhil Kumar

Still a bout away from ensuring a medal for India but his quotes has become quotable worthy already. Why shouldn't it be like that, after all he defeated the world champion and caused a huge upset.

Quotes: Michael Phelps

I think that everything is possible as long as you put your mind to it and you put the work and time into it. I think your mind really controls everything : Michael Phelps

I wouldn't say anything is impossible. I think that everything is possible as long as you put your mind to it and put the work and time into it : Michael Phelps

You can't put a limit on anything. The more you dream, the farther you get : Michael Phelps

Quotes : Dark Knight

Alfred Pennyworth: You crossed the line first, sir. You squeezed them, you hammered them to the point of desperation. And in their desperation they turned to a man they didn't fully understand

The Joker: I believe whatever doesn't kill you simply makes you... stranger.


Alfred Pennyworth: When I was in Burma, a long time ago, my friends and I were working for the local Government. They were trying to buy the loyalty of tribal leaders, bribing them with precious stones. But their caravans were being raided in a forest north of Rangoon by a bandit. We were asked to take care of the problem, so we started looking for the stones. But after six months, we couldn't find anyone who had traded with him. One day I found a child playing with a ruby as big as a tangerine. The bandit had been throwing the stones away.
Bruce Wayne: Then why steal them?
Alfred Pennyworth: Because he thought it was good sport. Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.
[later in the film]
Bruce Wayne: Did you ever catch that bandit in Burma?
Alfred Pennyworth: Eventually, yes.
Bruce Wayne: How?
Alfred Pennyworth: ...we burned the forest down.

The Joker: Come here. Hey! Look at me. So I had a wife, beautiful, like you, who tells me I worry too much. Who tells me I ought to smile more. Who gambles and gets in deep with the sharks... look at me! One day, they carve her face. And we have no money for surgeries. She can't take it. I just want to see her smile again, hmm? I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars. So... I stick a razor in my mouth and do this...
[mimics slicing his mouth open with his tongue]
The Joker: ...to myself. And you know what? She can't stand the sight of me! She leaves. Now I see the funny side. Now I'm always smiling!

The Joker: You just couldn't let me go could you? This is what happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object. You truly are incorruptible aren't you? You won't kill me out of some misplaced sense of self-righteousness, and I won't kill you, because you're just too much fun. I think you and I are destined to do this forever.

The Joker: [to Det. Stephens] Do you wanna know why I use a knife? Guns are too quick. You can't savor all the... little... emotions. In... you see, in their last moments, people show you who they really are. So in a way, I know your friends better than you ever did. Would you like to know which of them were cowards?

The Joker: I took Gotham's white knight, and brought him down to our level. It wasn't hard. Y'see, madness, as you know, is like gravity. All it takes is a little...push.

Lt. James Gordon: Because he's the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one it needs right now...and so we'll hunt him, because he can take it. Because he's not a hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector...a dark knight.

The Joker: The only sensible way to live in this world is without rules!

The Joker: See, I'm not a monster...I'm just ahead of the curve.

The Joker: [holding a knife inside Gambol's mouth] Wanna know how I got these scars? My father was....a drinker. And a fiend. And one night he goes off crazier than usual. Mommy gets the kitchen knife to defend herself. He doesn't like that. Not. One. Bit. So, me watching, he takes the knife to her, laughing while he does it. Turns to me and he says "Why so serious?" Comes at me with the knife,"Why so serious?" He sticks the blade in my mouth. "Let’s put a smile on that face!" And..... Why so serious?

The Joker: You'll see, I'll show you, that when the chips are down, these uh... civilized people, they'll eat each other.

Batman: Sometimes, truth isn't good enough, sometimes people deserve more. Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded.

Batman: You'll hunt me. You'll condemn me. Set the dogs on me. Because that's what needs to happen.

Harvey Dent: The night is darkest just before the dawn. And I promise you, the dawn is coming.

Two-Face: You thought we could be decent men at an indecent time. But you were wrong; the world is cruel, and the only morality in a cruel world is chance.

The Joker: Why don't we cut you up into little pieces and feed you to your pooches? Hmm? And then we'll see how loyal a hungry dog really is. It's not about money... it's about... sending a message. Everything burns.

The Joker: [speaking to Two-Face] Do I really look like a guy with a plan? You know what I am? I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it! You know, I just, do things. The mob has plans, the cops have plans, Gordon's got plans. You know, they're schemers. Schemers trying to control their worlds. I'm not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how, pathetic, their attempts to control things really are. So, when I say, ah, come here, when I say that you and your girlfriend was nothing personal, you know that I'm telling the truth.

It's the schemers that put you where you are. You were a schemer, you had plans, and uh, look where that got you. I just did what I do best. I took your plan and I turned it on itself. Look what I did, to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets. Hm? You know what, you know what I noticed? Nobody panics when things go according to plan. Even if the plan is horrifying. If tomorrow I tell the press that like a gang banger, will get shot, or a truckload of soldiers will be blown up, nobody panics, because it's all, part of the plan. But when I say that one, little old mayor will die, well then everyone loses their minds!
Introduce a little anarchy. Upset the established order, and everything becomes chaos. I'm an agent of chaos. Oh and you know the thing about chaos, it's fair.

Broody and Sulky: Part 2

So here I am again. Not in the office today. At home was thinking of going early then better sense prevailed and will now reach office at my usual time (which is quite late by any standards). Still broody, still sulky, still cynical, and still contemplating.

Back in Bangalore after a trip home. The trip which has silenced me. Really and literally silenced. Anyhow I was not much of a talker but now it seems that it is one art which I have forgotten. I don't know what to say and speak. The smile along with any conversation is essentially fake and even when I do that its just to fit in. WHY?

The time off was a time for me contemplate, think about how to move forward, get over a failed relationship. The time home did gave plenty of space to brood over various matters. Unfortunately in my quest to seek answers I am left with even more questions.

Relationship, hmmm, what the heck, it was nice, it was cool, it was amazing, I am just thankful for having any. It does not matter to me any more. But I am always game for another one ;) howsoever superficial it maybe. In fact the more the superficial, the better it will be

What disturbs me today is the absence of any particular aim. I think and reflect and ask myself but I find no answer. There is a reason why the school days and college days are reminisced upon as best days in anyones life. Even without realizing we all work toward some aim. We always move forward in those days. After that the stagnation erodes the joy away from life like a termite. I now understand why some choose the drug route of escapism.

You know what, in some post of mine I would list out what I like to do. Right now as one my known observed I am like a aimless wanderer with a question "Why am I living" written on the face. I am not sad. Not at all think that. All I am today is reflective, not sad.

I am a dreamer. In this modern world along with embracing the modern concepts and beliefs (sometimes thoughts way ahead of the country I am living in ;)) somewhere their remains primitive and medieval me inside of me. Believing in super heroes and larger than life warriors. But truly speaking I would rather be not like them. Instead I would rather like to be the leader leading the unsung militia facing the first shots of the enemy. Heehehe the plot from The Patriot.

Truly speaking what I need is to flicker and lighten up myself and others and then die. The emotion that encompasses my thought process is best described by what Neil Young said in one of his songs It's better to burn out than to fade away. Till now my caged soul has been limited with absence of ways and invisible paths to excel. But one day I would. The glory would be mine, even though for a moment, it will be mine dear Sir, yes it will be mine. My Precioussssssss

Quote : Kipling and Benjamin Disraeli

Words are, of course the most powerful drug used by mankind - Kipling

Never apologize for showing feelings. When you do so, you apologize for the truth - Benjamin Disraeli

As I am a collector copying unashamedly from Atish's blog

Broody and Sulky : Part 1

Long time no see !! A typical greeting to a chat buddy pinging you after long time. In the absence of creativity I will use the same to greet the few very stubborn readers of my blog. Those readers who have endured with my highly unskillful writing skills and even more pathetic incoherent thought process. I have an added cliche greeting for you i.e. Hats off to you my friends. Well inspite of all my shortcomings I do tend to update my blog, so the reason for not doing so was that I went home. Yeah home after 1.6 years. Before you even think that may be my parents live in some other country then let me correct you they live here. In the same country of diversity, mob mentality, tolerance, intolerance, a country of a billion which has finally got an individual gold in olympics. For the last one I got to say thank you Mr Bindra.

So here I am today in my office and ironically blogging not working. Strange is my sense of timing. I tend to work when at home in my supposed free time and do all sort of stuff during my working hours. My work timing and my non work timing has got entangled to an extent that each moment I feel I am either working and not free or I am not working and doing nothing. Nevertheless here I am today after a 9 days off from work and it happened as I did not take my laptop with me. Strangely after a trip after home which mind you I needed desperately I am tending more towards being broody, sulky and cynical. WHY?

Went home to Patna (Bihar). If you do not know where that is then Laloo Prasad Yadav. If you still don't know the place I am talking about either you are not an Indian or you have zero general knowledge. In between my old city is not the same any more. I was able to see bikes like pulsar, karizma and even R15. Yeah in Patna where we use to fear that if I take a bike today then one could only speculate and pray that it stays tomorrow. More over I saw some Vishal Mart, twin tower and many new places like that. Then the most shocking and most heartening of all was the markets and even small shops bustling with activity even as late as 11 PM. Yeah 11 PM !! Imagine that happening in Bangalore. Zillion times better than Bangalore. I wish this moral policing would stop and Bangalore could behave as a cosmopolitan should But who am I to wish , I am JASE (Just Another Software Engineer). People (hmmm) I almost got suffocated with number of people I saw on road. They were huge in number, never thought my home town has grown so rapidly. The dark side of development was that moving on roads (if I could call them that) was like moving amidst heaps of trash. This new BJP government in the state I guess would stay for giving people the sense of safety. I guess next time when (or if) they get elected they will really have to do work get elected again.

You were There : Eric Clapton

A glass of wine, dim lights, a hard days work, relaxed atmosphere, fewer chats, vibrant music to touch the soul, small but a close group of friends, better if with partners. Some of the few things which comes to my mind while listening to the song.

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Lost in the wilderness,
Somewhere out at sea.

But you were there
Through the days of wine and madness,
When I'd always put you down.
You were there
Through my joys and my sadness
And you never let me down.

You found the meaning
And helped me to see
Where I was going to
All that I could be.

Without permission
You turned the key.
You climbed the prison wall
Deep inside of me.

You were there
Through the days of wine and madness
When I'd turn and put, put you down.
You were there
Through my joys and my sadness
And you never let me down.

You were there
Through the days of wine and madness
When I'd turn and put, put you down.
You were there
Through my joys and my sadness
And you never let me down.
Let me down.

You were there.
You were there.
You were there.

SMS's Services With A Funny Streak

There is reason why I do not have a high end phone. At least I would like to think that way. The mystery behind my odd behavior of possessing a low cost phone in spite of currently working in a company working in mobile domain got revealed to me today.

There are two basic service of phone which I use. One is the most basic of calling and receiving calls and the other is for receiving and sending messages in text format. For me these two basic service is enough. In fact more than enough. In fact it provides so much entertainment that I am scared that "I" with a high end phone with infinite amount of facilities would become a mobile-o-holic.

But why am I telling you this. No where near doing justice to the title of this post. What to do my mind is like a free bird and a careless wanderer and has started to affect my writing style.

Coming down to the point.

I work in a company which provides a search service. Search anything via web,wap or sms and if the answer is not found in already existing information with us then we find the answer from somewhere and sms it to you.

Yes of course indeed a good service.

Now I know there are two kind of skeptics who are reading this

One who is thinking that I am doing a shameless publicity of my company service. For them I would say "Hey you blind people can't you already see a search box on right top of my blog"

And the other skeptics are people whose mind has already imagining thing. Yeah you, you dirty minded dog who is thinking that well I should ask them Angelina Jolie's stats, or when does Priyanka Chopra takes bath (Bath == nudity (got the relation)). Or yeah the favorite where could I get a girl . Truly speaking if somehow you get the answer to this from the service then I would believe it is no less than a God. God...hmmm..would I be wrong If I say then it is even bigger :)

My mind wanders ...Remember !!!

So the thing which I wanted to say is that I keep pushing the system and ask pretty different questions. It achieves dual purpose. One it improves the data our system has and secondly it gives me a sick pleasure of knowing that I am better than the dumb system. At least for now.

Now if an answer is not found in the system then we deliver it to you on the phone by somehow finding it somewhere. Now these unknown answer could be big and you must be knowing that a big message generally gets split into multiple message. Here is one of the message I received for the query of "CAT forms Bangalore". The message was big and it got split into two which created a humor out of its own

The first message I received was

For Cat forms bangalore, user(dc_sat) on zook,"The CAT 2008 Bulletin containing the CAT application form and other information can be obtained at bra(1/2)

For the benefit of all those sickos who are thinking this was done deliberately. Here is the second part

nches of UTI Bank/pos off(mg road,jp nagar, jayanagar, kmngla,bellary, marathahalli,gulbarga) bt July 17 and aug 17 for rs 1100(rs 550 for sc/st)

I tell you...humor always lurks everywhere.

Quote : Woodrow Wilson

A conservative is a man who sits and thinks, mostly sits : Woodrow Wilson

Of all the years of me thinking myself to be otherwise, this guy has proved me wrong.

I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You : Colin Hay

Got this link from the one who does not want to be named as he does not want to put it in his blog (;)). I have no words after going through the lyrics and the song. You do not have to look at the video to appreciate the song, rather the song and its lyrics is compelling enough to make you come back to it repeatedly

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I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I'm done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
That if I lived till I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
I'm no longer moved to drink strong whisky
'Cause I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even after all these years
But I don't want you thinking I don't get asked to dinner
'Cause I'm here to say that I sometimes do
Even though I may soon feel the touch of love
I just don't think I'll ever get over you
If I lived till I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

15/6/2008: Koramangala Methodist Church (KMC): Speaker: Pastor Grace Methodist Church: Theme: Life in his kingdom

Was unable to get the name of the speaker. Reading was taken from 1 Timothy 1:1-10. And here goes the sermon in 1st person

Paul appreciated timothy and his parents and grandparent of their faith.

1 John 3:1-3: talks about the lavish love for our heavenly father. When God appears we will be like Him.

Scripture talks about various workers working for different amount of time getting the same amount of money as renumeration. The laborers belong to the poorest of the poor. This parable talks about the kingdom of god.

Where is the kingdom of God? When this kingdom will come. We normally believe that this kingdom is up above without any sufferings. New testament has a lot of parables which talk about the kingdom of God. New testament tells that the kingdom of God has come. A place where we obey the will of God. But it also tells that the best is yet to come.

What is life like in God's kingdom. The parables tells a lot about the kingdom. It tells that there is no favoritism in God's kingdom.

Jews disliked gentiles for thinking themselves as favorite to God. But everyone is equal in the sight of God.

God loves all. Irrespective of time or place. his love is for everyone. Some may have accepted Christ at different points in our life, as a child, as a youth, as an old. But in Jesus Christ we have someone who loves us equally. God loves those who come in the morning as well as those who come in the evening.

Thief in the cross asked Jesus to remember him and he accepts him in his kingdom.

Infinite compassion of God. It is so much, we won't be able to measure with our own understanding. In this parable God in His mercy Gave these poor people work ....

Common criticism to church is that to fill various vacancies with the second best candidates. We need to show compassion to other people who need it.

Generosity of God: All these laborers do different amount of work. There is no rank in God's kingdom. Everyone is same in the eyes of God and God gives them liberally and lovingly.

Pastor also raise funds. Some do give liberally and sometimes the generosity could be surprising. The philosophy of work is different in God's kingdom. These workers who came to work can be divided into two groups. One who were under contract and others who were not. In God's kingdom it is the joy of working which is important. Today the money which is abundant and flow has also affected the church. There is no joy of working instead we are working for thw money. In the kingdom of God we work for the joy. Its a joy to do his ministry

The Wreck : Rabindranath Tagore

I avoid picking up great writers. Avoid picking up writers of critical acclaim. I read quite often though not of late. But still I do believe I do have a good appetite for books (or I use to have).

There is a reason behind not picking up writers of such calibre.

The reason is simple. I do not understand them. I am unable to see the beauty which many a million people might have been able to see. Firstly its by default their novels, books, stories will be written in a language unknown to me. The language may be english, still I am unable to make out as their vocabulary is way.... way complex to my liking. Adding to it I don't like referring to dictionary 5 times in a single sentence. Secondly the level of abstraction is too much. Its always, the words written means something else, altogether !!. Above all even if I manage to make myself read such a novel I am left with more of an empty feeling than experiencing the joy associated with the concept of reading.

Nevertheless I thought of giving such reading a shot.

Picked up the novel named "The Wreck" by Rabindranath Tagore . A well known, loved and acclaimed Indian writer. Thought of reading this book and get myself the bragging rights of having read his novel.

Truly speaking it was a big mistake.

Reading this novel bought me back the horrors of reading one Mills and Boon novel I had read long time back. It was simply not meant for me. I do not know why Mills and Boons is very popular among girls and probably will never be able to find out. The similar frustrating feeling came after this novel and I gave up half way. Easy read. Easy flow. But ...but...simply not meant for me or to be sexist...not meant for guys.

This novel was suppose to show the rift between the reformist and progressive Brahamosamaj and traditional conservatism of Hinduism. This is what the back cover of the book says. But I never was able to see it. May be my reading thought process is not so well developed to appreciate and see such things.

So my take would be pick up this novel at your risk. Better if you are a Tagore fan overlook any of my blabbering. On the other hand this novel is suppose to be second best to Gitanjali by the same author.

Told Ya' I am unable to see what millions of others might have been able to see

Quote : Cullen Hightower

There's always somebody who is paid too much, and taxed too little - and it's always somebody else : Cullen Hightower

Some people can really summarize my feelings even before I am able to.

Conga : Gloria Estefan

Sometimes everything is right in a song and this is one of those songs. Not for the broody types and definitely not for the broken hearted. But this is a song of merriment. The beats, the lyrics, the voice, the music makes you jump off your seat. Even if you are not an enthu kinda' person you still won't be able to stop your feet from tapping around.

Love Gloria Estefan. Got introduced to her way way back in one of the diva concerts on star world. Although likes of Shania Twain were hogging the lime lite but it seemed she came out of nowhere and floored me with her voice. Hey she was well known singer then but I was hearing her for the first time. I just remember one more thing that she started by saying something sarcastically to the host who introduced her by saying that she had a troubled childhood. Stupid host !! probably he/she hadn't heard her before.

Nevertheless

Sit back, relax, throw away your negative thoughts and then let the music do the rest. I bet you won't be able to control yourself (any longer :))


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Come on , shake your body baby, do the conga
I know you can’t control yourself any longer
Come on , shake your body baby, do the conga
I know you can’t control yourself any longer

Come on , shake your body baby, do the conga
I know you can’t control yourself any longer
Feel the rhythm of the music getting stronger
Don’t you fight it ’til you tried it, do that conga beat

Everbody gather ’round now
Let your body feel the heat
Don’t you worry if you can’t dance;
Let the music move your feet

It’s the rhythm of the island, and like the sugar cane so sweet
If you want to do the conga, you’ve got to listen to the beat

Come on , shake your body baby, do the conga
I know you can’t control yourself any longer
Feel the rhythm of the music getting stronger
Don’t you fight it ’til you tried it, do that conga beat

Feel the fire of desire, as you dance the night away
’cause tonight were gonna party, ’til we see the break of day

Better get yourself together, and hold on to what you’ve got
Once the music hits your system, there’s no way your gonna stop

(repeat 3x’s) come on , shake your body baby, do the conga
I know you can’t control yourself any longer
Feel the rhythm of the music getting stronger
Don’t you fight it ’til you tried it, do that conga beat

Come on , shake your body baby, do the conga

Quote : Cecil Baxter

You don't get anything clean without getting something else dirty : Cecil Baxter

Looking at it one cannot disagree. Is it a much milder version of saying "For Greater Good".

A Long December : Counting Crow

Counting Crow got noticed by me in one of Atish Music blog post. Digging my own archive of songs I found this song which immediately got to my head without any special effort.

A long December and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can’t remember the last thing you said as you were leavin’
Now the days go by so fast

And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven... I wish you would

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it’s one more day up in the canyons
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California... I think you should

Drove up to the Hillside Manor sometime after two a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower,
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And it’s been a long December and there’s no reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better that the last
I can’t remember all the times I tried to tell myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it’s one more day up in the canyon
And it’s one more night in Hollywood
It’s been so long since I’ve seen the ocean... I guess I should

Loser : 3 Doors Down

It may take some time time to appreciate this song but with persistence it has the ability to grow upon you. The "X" factor to this song is its lyrics. Love the lines "You're getting closer.......Cause I'm a loser....".

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So take your lies, get off my case.
Someday I will find
A love that flows through me like this
This will fall away, this will fall away.

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
'Cause I'm a loser, I'm a loser, yeah.

This is getting old.
I can't break these chains that I hold
My body's growing cold
There's nothing left of this mind or my soul.
Addiction needs a pacifier, the buzz of this poison is taking me higher.
This will fall away, this will fall away.

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge.
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall
'Cause I'm a loser
I'm a loser!

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge.
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall.
'Cause I'm a loser

You're getting closer
To pushing me off of life's little edge
'Cause I'm a loser
And sooner or later you know I'll be dead.
You're getting closer
You're holding the rope and I'm taking the fall.
'Cause I'm a loser.

Quote : William Jennings Bryan

No one can earn a million dollars honestly : William Jennings Bryan (1860 - 1925)

:(( What will happen to my dream of retiring after bloating my bank a/c to a million dollar.

Quote : Jules Renard

Look for the ridiculous in everything and you will find it : Jules Renard (1864 - 1910)

Totally, completely and absolutely agree

Quote : Groucho Marx

I sent the club a wire stating, Please Accept my Resignation. I don't want to belong to any club that will accept me as a memeber : Groucho Marx

hmmmm...hahhaha...Can't add anything more. Don't even wanna personalize it :)

Quote : Jim Morrison

Some of the worst mistakes of my life have been haircuts: Jim Morrison (1943 - 1971)

Are they mine too. I will always wonder.

8/6/2008: Koramangala Methodist Church: Speaker: Pastor H Mathew: Theme: Growing from Small to Big: Months Theme: Life in His Kingdom

I have finally realized that it was not the pastor but me. I slept to my hearts content the previous night and found his sermon not so boring. Now I can definitely make peace with the notion that there is something wrong with his delivery. In fact his content is even more appealing.

A small story of a hymn was also mentioned today. "Blessed Assurance" was written by a blind person. What it signifies that even in disability this person was able to see the promise in the Lord.

Another thing worth mentioning is the soulful rendition by Joshua and one lady. Even though I am writing the post after such a long time their voice still rings in my ear.

The reading was taken from Mark 4:26-32

We always desire to grow and rise to greater heights. If we are not growing then we are static, stagnant leading to unhappiness.

In the parable their is an imagery of a seed with the kingdom of God. It talks about the growth of the seed referring to the growth of the kingdom of God. Another parable about wheat refers to the separation in the kingdom of God. Another parable talks about spreading of the kingdom of God.

People came and asked that why do Jesus talk in parables. He replies that kingdom of God is so mysterious that you won't understand it without simplification.

There is a secret growth of the kingdom of God as emphasized in the imagery via seed in the parable. Farmer sows and forgets but the seed grows with the farmer returning at the time of harvest. It is God who brings the fruit for the farmer. Similarly the kingdom grows under the eyes of God

Through intervention, involvement, participation of God something small can be transformed into something big. We may spend our life to achieve something big but we may not succeed due to the absence of God's involvement, as we do not desire his involvement...

In the scripture we see so many lives although being small in stature and grandeur was transformed to heights of greatness, David in old testament is such an example.

In new testament we see that Jesus feeds so many with so little in quantity. When sometimes we think that we are not worthy so much to do the work of God but God has a purpose for us and makes work in different ways.

No one thought that cross is something great questioning the very of a God being crucified. But for others cross is where we get our salvation from. Throughout his life Jesus humbleness was making Him the savior of the world.

We may think that we do not have that much ability, think oneself to be small in various aspects, but God will deliver us from smallness we may feel of. We may be in despair, poverty, hunger, smallness but when Jesus works continuously in our life then He brings great joy, comfort and the potential within us to make us greater in our life. We just need to plant the seed. Unless we sow the seed we won't get fruit. Although it may be a small seed but it will grow using the power within us. Likewise in the fields of family, society, friends, church; we have to sow the seed of God so that it can grow and do miracles. Sometimes we may sow the seed of evil. Satan encourages us in doing so. So we need to be careful and watchful.

God causes seed to grow. We may decide to lead a particular kind of life to achieve greatness but it is quite possible that we might fail. This happens due to our dependence on other things than God. We need to make an effort with God and allow the seed to grow. God works in us to help us grow in the kingdom of God.

Some one said that "Do what you do thoroughly, pray over it heartily and leave the result to God." When we do that God works in our life.

A story widely used to encourage young people. There was an emperor. In the absence of any child he thought of entrusting his kingdom to one among the youths. He called upon every young person in his kingdom. He said that "I will give you all one seed each, take it, plant it and come back after a year". A young man took the seed and went home. He took care of it. As time passed by all those who had taken the seed was confident but not this guy. He was not happy as his plant was not growing. After a year every one who had taken the seed brought their plants to the king's court for judgment. But this guy was sad as his plant had not grown and did not know what to do. His mother then told him to be honest. So he took whatever he had to the king. Every body else seeing his plant made fun of him. King arrived and was happy to see so many well developed plant. He noticed this young man's pot which was empty. On seeing that he exclaimed "Behold this person is your future king" Every one was surprised. The king explained "the seed give to each one you was such that it would have never grown. Everybody except this guy was dishonest and had used their own seed"

God has given us the seed. Many times we struggle to make it grow. We put our own seed to portray that the seed has grown. But we need to grow using the seed which God has given us. But if the seed fails to grow we need to be honest and as God for its purpose. We need to accept the kingdom of God with all honesty and sincerity and then God will take us from smallness to heights of glory.

Grief

Dark topic to my post. Indeed it is. I cannot argue with that. I was reading an interesting booklet (WatchTower). Although I read only a few pages but still it compelled me reproduce some of it over here in my blog.

Grief can effect us in various ways, but for many the overriding feeling is of immense emotional pain. Grief can be intense. Grief can visit in various forms. Nobody is untouched by the concept of grief, so I feel I need not reproduce examples to back my statement. But the question which haunts me is that is it possible to come out of it.

Just as severe physical wounds takes time to heal, so it is with bereavement. Recovering from grief may take months, a few years or even longer. But the acute pain one may feel in the beginning will lessen in time, and life would seem less bleak and meaningless.

Grief is said to be necessary part of healing process and it helps us in learning to adapt to the new situation. It may prove itself to be a necessary emotional release. And every individual grieves differently

Talking, writing, shopping, music, in fact anything could be useful. Just the requirement is to find oneself with the best compatible source of release. Which mind you is not easy.

Somewhere it is written by a pained soul "My soul certainly feels a loathing towards my life. I will give vent to my concern about myself. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul".

Wow what an expression of expressing the desire for the release. I am glad that I came across this meaningful expression which makes me feel its not so bad after all to glorify ones grief in the pursuit of an ever distant peace.

Well I cannot summarize this post or give it a proper conclusion cause I don't know how. I have been disabled by my conflicting thoughts and immense thoughts of nothingness but nonetheless I unashamedly take your leave and leave it to you to make some sense out of this rambling.

Quote : Ravi Zacharias

Ravi Zacharias : "I am absolutely convinced that meaninglessness does not come from being weary of pain; meaninglessness comes from being weary of pleasure"

The pleasures which gave so much meaning to life does not seem to work anymore. Is what Ravi Zacharias says true?

Debugging .sh in eclipse using external tools

Lets say X has been using eclipse for a while. He has been working on a project and he is delivering. He has been developing and debugging using an ide called eclipse which has taken him away from the system. Now he feel the need to go closer to the system. He writes build scripts, he makes the project as configurable as possible and makes the project IDE independent and linux/unix friendly. In the process he creates shell scripts. Now with time the codes got enhanced with lesser reliability on IDE. After a while he comes back and find to his amusement well now he is to code and inevitably debug. Now he is in a fix how to debug in eclipse (the concept he is so familiar with) the shell scripts which in turn calls bits and pieces of the rest of the code base(in java). Here is the way out for him.


Create Program in external tool. select sh ,select workspace and set all
the env var in env which are required to run that shell script. Some of the changes which I did was this. These changes are specific to user requirement

change in ENV
export CATALINA_JAVA_OPTS="-Xms128m -Xmx256m -Djava.compiler=none -Xdebug -Xnoagent -Xrunjdwp:server=y,transport=dt_socket,suspend=y,address=16123"

export INDEX_JAVA_OPTS="-Xms128m -Xmx256m -Djava.compiler=none -Xdebug -Xnoagent -Xrunjdwp:server=y,transport=dt_socket,suspend=y,address=16123"

export REPORTS_JAVA_OPTS="-Xms128m -Xmx256m -Djava.compiler=none -Xdebug -Xnoagent -Xrunjdwp:server=y,transport=dt_socket,suspend=y,address=16123"

export USER_PROFILER_JAVA_OPTS="-Xms128m -Xmx256m -Djava.compiler=none -Xdebug -Xnoagent -Xrunjdwp:server=y,transport=dt_socket,suspend=y,address=16123"

and create debug for this port,localhost in remote app debug

After this set break point in your code base using which one can debug.

Debugging remotely on tomcat using eclipse

Debugging was, is and always be one of the most potent tool in the hands of a developer. With most of the development exposed to me is in java. In spite of all my dislike to make it user friendly somehow in the end you have to make a web app out of it. Now if one is lucky then one might be writing code from scratch but most of the time its not the case. With companies following iterative policy of development some time or the other one will have to work on a monstrous code base. Now me being a fan of eclipse IDE will also like to debug on that. But one funny problem may happen in setting up the debugger in eclipse when your java web app is running remotely. In the sense you have your open in eclipse as a project but you run your web app directly from tomcat by making changes in tomcat config (server.xml) file. So debug under such a kind of scenario here are the steps


The steps below is for linux/unix m/c.

To debug the first step is to make sure that tomcat allows debugging:

1) Open your startup.sh

2) Add these two lines in the beginning which specifies debug on port
8000(This port could be different from the port you have exposed in
server.xml for your application)
export JPDA_ADDRESS=8000
export JPDA_TRANSPORT=dt_socket
3) Change the execute line at the end to include jpda start
exec "$PRGDIR"/"$EXECUTABLE" jpda start "$@"

Now start your tomcat. It will now allow debugging.

Allowing debugging is not enough. You should also be able to use the facility which you have allowed. Now there are various tools which could allow us to do it. I use eclipse so here are the steps to debug via eclipse.

1) Goto Run->Open Debug Dialog

2) Single-click the heading "Remote Java Application", then press the new
button (looks like a page with a plus on it).

3) On the dialog that appears, enter a meaningful name (like "<Your_ProjectName>(remote)" for this configuration).

4) From the same dialog, change to the "Source" tab, then click "Add".

5) On the dialog that appears, single-click "Java Project", then click
"OK".

6) On the dialog that appears, click "<Your_ProjectName>" (or check the projects
you wish to import), then click "OK".

7) Now click the "Connect" tab and un check the box marked "Allow termination of remote JVM". Do not check allow termination of remove VM. As each time you terminate the
debugging,the server will also be shutdown which you might not like.

8) Type in localhost (or the host you have mentioned in server.xml )in
Host Text Box

9) Type in 8000 (the port mentioned in tomcat startup.sh) in the Port
TextBox

10) Click "Apply" to save your changes.

11) Click "Debug" to start testing your configuration

12) Add breakpoints in your application

13) Open your browser and work with <Your_Project< until you reach your breakpoint. You should be directed into Eclipse where you will see the line of code with your breakpoint, a list of variables, etc., etc. And then you can gain knowledge about the flow and behavior of the code base

WebService Client over https (Note: https not http) using Eclipse

All those users who have been spoiled by the amazing eclipse (which includes me) will be even more amazed that the scenario described by me has already not been taken care of by eclipse. Well as there is already a plugin for creating the whole code base of web service client by just giving in the url of the concerned web service. But then there is a problem if the web service has been exposed on Hypertext Transfer Protocol over Secure Socket Layer. In simple words the url is https not http. Given such a scenario the plugin will not be able to generate the client code.

But as lazy I am, I would still like my client code to be auto generated. So here are the steps via which I was able to do it.

Firefox User(other browser user look for ways to get the certificate)
Download Cert Viewer Plus from https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/1964/
Restart firefox

Go to the url where the web service has been exposed https://www.xxxx/xxxx.asmx
Accept the certificate permanently which the browser will ask for acceptance
Go to Tools -> Certficate Manager. Go to Websites tab
Select your concerned site and export and save to some

Then type in the following command
keytool -import -alias -file

Actually you should go to your jdk.../gre/lib/security folder
For me it was c:/j2sdk1.4.2_16/jre/lib/security
and type in
keytool -import -keystore cacerts -alias -file /

After doing this now you can let the eclipse do the magic for you and create your web service client code base even for those secured services

Well I am learning the art of outsourcing. Right, I am limited to outsourcing my work to my IDE. Oh technology ...Oh technology !! makes a man/woman inherently an out-sourcer so why there is so much hullabaloo over it.

Quote : Sir Winston Churchill

It is a good thing for an uneducated man to read books of quotations :Sir Winston Churchill

Now I know...Now I know...why I like reading quotes...Now I know

UIMA Hadoop

Wow complex topic to my post. Yeah this is what I have been working on lately. And I have been struggling hard with it. Killing forums for answers which I don't find in the web. Strange but its true there are still some things unavailable in the web. In the process of seeking answers I have somehow managed to educate myself. And whats even more surprising the answer which I was seeking was good enough to be put in their wiki. And what more the content was delivered by me as I somehow managed to get to the solution taking half inputs from all the places. Well why am I writing about this. Its not to brag but because I want to keep the solution for myself and more over because this is probably my first ever contribution of any form to an open source project and for the community. So here is the solution which I posted along with the link to the wiki

Running UIMA Apps on Hadoop

And here goes the original content. Who knows who may edit it.

Problem:

To make a simple UIMA app work over hadoop

Assumption:

     1. You have tested hadoop and you have it running
     2. You have a standalone UIMA app which has been tested

How TO

     1. Let the UIMA be a simple nameAnnotation example which uses a type system nameType for name annotation. Let the descriptors for them be nameAnnotator.xml and nameType.xml.
     2. Write a map and reduce classes within the application along with a job specifier.
     3. Via these map/reduce class you aim to annotate the input value which they are recieving
     4. Create a job jar out of the application.
     5. Run this over hadoop

It will not work. There are several other things which has to be taken care of before

Important Consideration (Before creating/running the Job Jar over hadoop)

     1. The jar file created should shave all the classes, descriptors of the UIMA app along with the map/reduce and job main class
     2. All import in the descriptor declared in UIMA (be it analysis engine, agg engine, cas consumer etc) should be import by name.
     3. Any such activity which involves reading of a resource should be done using the Classloader:
     For eg. Reading an xml source should be done via XMLInputSource in = new XMLInputSource(ClassLoader.getSystemResourceAsStream
    (aeXmlDescriptor),null) i.e. inputstreams should be created using classloader
     4. Last but not the least ResourceManager should be used while producing any analysis engine/ cas consumer etc.

     E.g. ResourceManager rMng=UIMAFramework.newDefaultResourceManager();
rMng.setExtensionClassPath(str, true); //Here str is the path to any of the resources which can be obtained via
//ClassLoader.getSystemResource(aeXmlDescriptor).getPath()
     rMng.setDataPath(str);
     aEngine = UIMAFramework.produceAnalysisEngine
        (aSpecifier,rMng,null);

     This 4th point has to be considered as when we read a xml without using classloader by default it reads from temp task directory i.e..
/tmp/hadoop-root/mapred/local/taskTracker/jobcache/
    job_200806112341_0002/task_200806112341_0002_m_000000_0/
     But all the resources gets unjarred in
/tmp/hadoop-root/mapred/local/taskTracker/jobcache/
        job_200806112341_0002/work
     directory
     So to tell the system to look out for hadoop in the correct directory we have to use Resource Manager. Actually this is required to take care of the the resources which UIMA will try to load because of the imports present in its various descriptors

Quote : William Shakespeare

How my achievements mock me! : William Shakespeare

Achievements or not, everything mocks me

SMS this to that SMS that to this

Mobile Phones. A commodity without which I am unable even to imagine how our fathers and fore-fathers use to live. I have tried imagining and failed to do so. With ever increasing user base sometimes do you have a feeling that unwanted things have started to happen more. Those unwanted phone calls with a bunch of unwanted sms's. Truly speaking some may find it annoying but I don't. Unfortunately the people who send it have a sick sense of humor. Every time they manage to send these sms's and make calls exactly during those time when I don't want it to. Still my patience hasn't given up and I am able look at the bright side i.e. they make me sometime feel important and not so alone.

Wow it seems I am really lonely and desperate!!.

God give these people all the blessings in the world. And thankfully these people don't know want kind of handset I have. Or they do not know how mobile unsavvy I am in spite of currently in a firm which works quite a bit within the mobile domain. I guess this is the only time I am thankful of my blog being not so popular otherwise they would definitely stop calling me after reading this confession of mine.

Moving on have you ever received sms's which tells you to text some thing back to a particular number and you can win something. Or text something to know your future (yeah I agree strange cocktail of modernity (mobile phones) and medieval beliefs(future,horoscope)). Or text something to check compatibility with some other person.

What do I do with these. I think I do what everyone does, I delete them. Good fingering exercise. But this is where I got it wrong. Since these kind of messages never stop and is ever increasing in their diversity. It must be making some business sense. Somebody must be replying. Not only somebody but I guess there are plenty who must be replying. A billion in population, only a few percentage makes huge number.

Why am I telling you this. Because finally I succumbed to their tireless effort. All these days I tried to be elusive but in one moment of weakness I yielded to my curiosity. Even though the results I got will not ensure my loyalty as a user but it certainly was worth every rupee of premium charges spent on the sms. To be more precise, it was hilarious.

Let me just reproduce some of the replies which I got. There was one which asked to sms my name and get to know my future or something like that. And the reply was:

You are witty and creative. You have a positive frame of mind and are very inspiring and big hearted. When your feelings are hurt you withdraw into a shell but your cheerful nature pulls you through. Be careful, lest you lapse into depression and cynicism.


Yes yes...all you who know me can laugh...As I said before it is hilarious ...where do they drive out the results from...If tomorrow I change my name to some Barak Obama will my fortune and character change. I guess it will. May be I should do that. Keep smsing till I get the best character description and change my name. All those who are getting influenced please try and tell me whether it worked or not.

Another one of the service was to sms name of you and your partner and it checks for compatibility. I had to sms two words only (probably a combo of my first name and my love interests first name). But now as dumb I am, I sms'ed 4 words, my full name and the other's full name. (Later on tried the correct way too but the results are not so funny to be disclosed...You know sometimes I am an emotional fool to be not so candid). So the result of the wrong sms was that it found compatibility with my first name 'Rohan' and my last name 'Rai'. So here goes the reply.


Rating 8.5. rohan your love for rai is rated as 8.5 out of 10. Your love is so pure and true that it is most probably used as an example amongst many of your friends. There are non selfish interest involved in any form in you for your partner. With little effort your love can change from being on the verge of to really escalating to the next level of unconditional love. You should be happy to have experienced something like this. Just set aside your worries and enjoy this blissful relationship


Didn't I have said it twice already this gonna be hilarious.

For me it seems that Rohan is truly, madly, deeply in love with Rai and loving it

After reading this I really need to find a girl named 'Rai'. Wow their goes my chance of getting paired.

What can I say in the end their are ways sick humor (he he) is always lurking in corner to give you a surprise. Be there be technology or no technology. All you have to do is to seek earnestly

Quote : Jonathan Winters

Nothing is impossible. Some things are just less likely than others : Jonathan Winters

Or most of the things, in fact all of the things are more unlikely.

Quote : James Thurber

I used to wake up at 4 A.M. and start sneezing, sometimes for five hours. I tried to find out what sort of allergy I had but finally came to the conclusion that it must be an allergy to consciousness : James Thurber

Now I know at least one person in the chain via whom this allergy got passed on to me :D

Quote : Sam Levenson

You must learn from the mistakes of others. You can't possibly live long enough to make them all yourself : Sam Levenson

Well with all the wisdom of the world I still believe in making them myself.

Wild Life (The Rat)

One fine day when the rats and us use to live together I had the opportunity to capture them in my camera. Here are the two pics which I managed of the fidgety little creatures. Actually it seems that this guy knew I would click it, so it came out in the open, posed and then it went back the same route via which it had come. Now, when we have sealed all possible routes of its visit, I would not like to say that I miss them a lot but Life's use to be interesting. It was a different creepy feeling altogether when they use to come and fiddle with my feet before scaring me out of the bed at night. Eating half of our things, and of course their taste was quite varied. From the cooked food, to the uncooked ration, or the clothes in our cupboard having equal appetite for both the new and the old. I remember our different failed mission in collaboration with our cook or all on our own to get back our house from them. Well what to say in the country where I live they make their entry in each and every house some how. Since childhood I have seen man against this tiny creature having the ability to instill fear in many a people 100 times their size. So with circumspect we use to live each day but I think we have finally won by sealing all possible entry points. But looking back I sometimes do find those times funny, in fact very funny.

1/6/2008: Koramangala Methodist Church: Theme: Gods Kingdom: Speaker: Pastor Andrew

One thing I noticed this day that in the absence of my hair band, open hair makes me look out of the place. Anyways without wasting too many words here is the sermon for this day

Reading: St. Mathew 3:1-12

The gospel contiuously speak about the kingdon of God. What is kingdom of God? It is the dynamic rule of God,.... The kingdom of God does not belong belong to a particular tribe. Mathew speaks 50 times, Mark 14, Luke 39 and John 5 times about the kingdom of God. In the passage John came preaching aout the kingdon of God. Three important things we can carry on in our spiritual life; preaching of John the baptist, life of John the baptist and purpose of john the baptist.

God was faithfull to the people of Israel. He brought them to the promise land. Wilderness is a place of revelation. It is also a place for testing.Gods kingdom is based out of the place of wilderness. We may undergo wilderness i our own life( life of hostility ) but God gives us the promise to show the way from wilderness. We need to turn arouno and face the reality of kingdom of God. John tells us about repentance in order to enter kingdom of God. We often tend to change externally but resist any change internally and in our own private life. John talks about judgement. We like to here goody message which gives comfort to us but in the absence of genuine repentance we are to be judged like everyone else.

A tree that does not bear good fruit is bound to be cut down by the axe and thrown to fire. We as Christians are the tree and via the axe (a symbol of authority) , will be judged for the absence of fruit. John the baptist dressed peculiarly which denoted his poverty and was dependent on God in his wilderness. He ate and dress within the things which were available to him. But even in poverty he was committed towards God's purpose. We spend so much time towards improving our lifestyle that its desire gets closer towards greed leading to gluttony. It is important for us to realize that we are God's people and thus should be content with what God has given to us.

John 1:19-23: People are confused who is He. He then replies that he is not Christ, Elijah or any prophet. He replies that he is the voice of the wilderness who comes to prepare the way of the Lord. Who are we? How we define our own identity? Many people are caught in bothering about what are others saying about them. Our identity should come from the relationship we have with Lord Jesus. Pupose of John which he had in his life was clear to him that he had come to prepare the way of the Lord. Likewise we should also prepare the way of the Lord by our deeds, our bearings,....We should prepare the way for the second coming of Jesus. We should move out of the way, lower the resistance and allow God to work in us. John 3:30. He says that "He must increase but I must decrease". That is the way we make the way for the kingdom of God for its coming. We should be humble to allow Lord to prosper in our life . Mathew 11:11 He who is humble is greater

Bangalore Traffic

A pic to portray what Bangalore road looks like most of the time.

Quote : Philip K. Dick

“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn't go away.”:Philip K. Dick quotes

The world would have been a better place if it was otherwise

Quote : Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:11

When I was a child I spake as a child : Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:11.

Then I became an adult and started speaking as an adult. Was it good or bad I will always wonder but in the end nature took its own course.

Tu rootha to Main ro dungi Sanam

After working my ass off for a few minutes with google, I was finally able to get hold of the lyrics of this song. Strange is the level of frustration when I don't get the required result in a single search. I guess as a google user I am becoming more demanding. A typical peppy number from 80's having no out of the box quality to move you. But it has the simplicity and compatibility with your ears because of the easy flow of its tune which can hook you on. The same goes for its lyrics. Somewhere I read that Asha Bhosle was 50 years old when she gave her voice to this song for a 18 year old girl (Haven't verified the fact though). Assuming this to be true, it makes me appreciate the song even more. Was not successful in obtaining its video from youtube but vtap.com did give me something to cheer

tu rootha to main ro dungi sanam
aaja meri baahon mein aa
tu rootha to main ro dungi sanam
aaja meri baahon mein aa

le legi jaan meri
teri naaraazagi
jis mein tu kush rahe
meri us mein kushi

tu rootha to main ro dungi sanam
aaja meri baahon mein aa

ho teri ye saadagi
ye bholaapan tera
mera nasib hai
khilta joban tera

meri bahaar tu
mera qaraar tu
masti se bhar diya
tune jivan mera

tu meri hai
main tera huun sanam
pagali hai kya
hans de zara

chupke se bol de
dil mein jo baat hai
ab koyi dar nahin
apni har raat hai

apna ye pyaar bhi
pooja se kam nahin
mujhko ye naaz hai
tu mere saath hai

tu rootha to main ro dungi sanam
aaja meri baahon mein aa

tu meri hai
main tera hun sanam
pagali hai kya
hans de zara

Attitude

If some one tells me that there is too much nudity in my blog. I would say Hey close your eyes if you don't like it. Woman's body is an ultimate challenge for me as a novice sketcher. Also, they form one of the most interesting and beautiful subject. And this girl personifies attitude. Try looking out for the original somewhere in the net if you are not convinced by my copying skills.

Purity (Original is even better)

This was one of the sketches I saw in world wide web as the rest of my sketches. I liked it too much so here is an attempt.

Jogger

Huffing and puffing and jogging away to good health. I have tried to renew this medieval activity of mine and have failed miserably in doing so. So I thought why not relive it via my sketch